this seems to be the common title of my blog posts.
Convocation is over! I am finally a graduate with a 17k loan to repay T.T
Totally not loving the responsibilities that comes with that.
My grandfather has passed away exactly 7 days before my convocation. I guess that is a welcome relief for him. Seeing him grow thinner and thinner everyday, slipping away slowly and silently is both a blessing and torture for my mum. I believe that a child will never crease to see his/her parents as a solid rock in their life. To have that taken away from them is a shock, no matter what age the child is at. Thankfully(?), my mum wasn’t there when he passed. Only in this way, can she keep her promise to shigong that she won’t burst out crying. I have to say that witnessing this funeral I have seen the best and the worst in people. The arguments over matters, both trivial and important, have brought many sides in people that I haven’t seen before. I am just glad that my mum managed to persuade them to hold a Buddhist funeral. That, I think, is the biggest blessing of all.
I think I witnessed a lot of miracles and learnt a lot of experience through my grandfather’s funeral. How the whole thing worked out in the end is really a miracle. My grandfather must be a man with great blessings, for he is so fortunate to have a lot of Buddhist Venerable monks to chant sutra for him during his 7 days wake. R.I.P Ah gong!
There are so many things that I want to rant about but I really cannot find the energy to complain anymore. Irresponsible people, people who refuses to listen to advice and these people are all older than me…. I have no right to criticize them. After all, they are still my elders. If they can live with their conscience then so be it.
People always hold you to your words. Never promise to deliver when you are not planning to actually do that. This will only earn you a bad reputation and endless cursing. 一个人重要的不是他有没有钱,而是他的德行。
I think the lesson that really shocked me to the core is the fact that, at the end of the day, we are all going to end up as a pile of bones/ashes. What really matters is what you have done for both yourself and others when you are alive and kicking. Live life to the fullest and without regrets.

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August 9, 2010 at 12:12 am
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RIP to your ahgong, and hope the rest of the people alive find peace for themselves.
Yea we’re all going to end up as a pile of ashes (given the shortage of land) in a pot. I just don’t know yet what i can leave for the world, or even just for my loved ones before i become that.