nite post continued

lol I am back to continue. Anyways, i think the ktv session was the first time i can tahan singing for so long ahahhaha from 7 to 11pm.  super long. super exhausted by the end of the session.

after working for 5 weeks, i really want to go back to school to study. . .

 

second post in the office

back in office for the 3 day in the week! hahhaha trying to keep myself optimistic for the day(s) to come. Went ten dollar KTV ytd night with the office people. Woah! hahahah their stamina is good! I am like dead by ten pm. Left at 11pm and reached home at 11 plus, 12 mn.

As a result, my eyes are swollen shut when i woke up in the morning. In my desperate attempts to make my eyes stay open, I resorted to using my fingers……. hahaha END RESULTS: open but horribly different shaped eyes. :X

back later to continue

 

blogging in the morning

in the office now so this post won’t be long. I wanna meet u guys for gathering Suffocating in boredom at work. Really experiencing the shallow feeling stage of my life. the interaction with my colleagues is most of the time, funny. but it just cannot get a bigger response out of me.

 

first, er…. second post

really feeling very shallow feelings lately which is really weird… really weird foreign feelings.

 

new world

decide to move to a new place at wordpress.

hopefully it will a tranquil place for me to vent myself

 

Hello world!

Welcome to WordPress.com. This is your first post. Edit or delete it and start blogging!

 

work

I have started my internship! People in that office are nice and they bring a lot of laughter to the place.

Somehow along the way I have got by the 2 days. Still compilation work now and feeling very stupid cos I don’t really get instructions.

Went outside the office twice today to get hold of my emotions. What is it that makes me so dissatisfied with myself? It is so hard to turn this dissatisfaction into motivation. feeling very down because of this.

Maybe I discovered the root of my problem. In all the situations I am in, it seems as if I am always dissatisfied. Unhappy with what I have, always wanting more. ALWAYS FOCUSING ON MYSELF….

 

back

back to this place after a super hectic sem. Regret a lot of things including not studying as much as I should have. haizzzz…

Anyway, my PA is going to start soon. On 11th May. Wish me luck and motivation at work!

I need motivation and a focus in order to succeed ba…..

 

Busy Busy Busy

My god! Part 1 of IT project is over!!!!!!!!!! 51 pages and a PDF file of 8.48MB
hahahah I was quite shocked by the size of it.

As I was telling Ying2, I feel like all the projects I have done is not very good…. In fact sometimes, I feel like the reports that my groups came up with sucks… but it is because I have seen the content so many times that I feel like I can detect the SMALLEST weakness in the report. I hope the instructor don’t see it……

One down, 4 more reports to go……

 

Feeling really weird now. Like the feeling u get before an important event and u start feeling reflective.

There are many things in my life that I wished that I have not done and a huge load of things that I wished I had. But, thank you. It is all these experience that has created the Yi Xian that you see today.

I may not be the best in anything but at least I am a decent human being. I may complain and bitch about everything, pls bear with me. It is just the internal perfectionist in Pisces that is screaming.

Sometimes, I really wonder what kind of person I am. I feel this wall between me and the people around me. Like I am all alone in this world. I continue to laugh but after the laughter, the loneliness sets in.

Aiyo I am becoming emo again. Self-imposed isolation ba.

I know I have said this a lot of times but I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS.
Thanks for being there when I needed you. Thanks for listening to me.